a year has passed.
a year that i've experienced so many new things.
a year where there were many ups and downs which is normal.

2007 was the year that i was enlisted into the national service.
its been rather interesting experience.
where i've learnt things that i wouldn't not have learnt anywhere esle.
where i experience office politics.
where i've never felt fitter in my life too.

being in the spore civil defence force
i was able to learn fire fighting skills
get to have a taste of what they go through
and it is definately an experience i'll never forget

i also took up the challenge of studying part time while serving my NS
and i take my hat off to people who work and study at the same time,
people who have kids and have to work,
and those people who have more than one job just to support themselves
it strikes me how lucky i am in life
and how much i take that for granted

having the manage your time down to every single second is tough
having to prioritise everything from work even to weekend outings with friends
and at the same time training hard for sport and fitness

it really hits me that its only going to get tougher in life
and this is only just the beginning
so there is a fear in me
the fear of being found wanting at the end of it

and i've never felt so lost in my life
at points, i don't even know who my friends were
don't know whether i can even fall back onto my family
and for the first time, i wasn't absolutely sure about the course i'm taking

but though the year was rather taxing on me
it did have its ups for sure
just small things that make me smile
small things that keeps me going
only thing is, i'm afraid it might slip away