i have seemed to have lost my way.
lost focus on what is really important to me.
being distracted unneccessarily.
not smooth sailing as it once was.

is being promoted in NS more important than passing my ACCA exams?
does this make me selfish?
making me look like i only think about myself.
am i actually only thinking about myself?

i need to priortise my objectives.
and fast.
exams are in december, thus it doesn't give me much time to revise anymore.

and not only that, i seem to be losing touch with my closest friends.
i used to meet them every week for a game of squash or just a session at the gym,
now i hardly get to see them.

NS is really a big big distraction.
now i know why people just go with the flow rather than trying their best at times.
i used to have fun in camp.
now its something i just want to get it done and over with.

as they say, doing things that you don't like makes one grow up.
is it really true?