you just give up after a while.
its true i've been distracted by stuff that won't be important to me 20years down the road.
i used to try to do my best at work, until recently.

so i just study whenever i can and just concentrate on the examinations which are in about 6weeks time.
being in NS, it retricts me to study at my own time and own pace.
i've now got to find any avaliable time i have at camp to study.

that means i've to study in the evenings and even then i won't have enough time to cover what i set myself too.
again i'm feeling exhausted, lacking the motivation to do anything.
i've become a walking zombie in camp.

but hey.
an extremely good friend of mine reminded me of something really important.
something that would be more important to me 20years down the road is much more important that what would only last for 2years.
the logic of it seems simple, but sometimes, you forget it and take things way too seriously.

so its another 6weeks to my papers.
being a walking zombie is something i've gotten used to, or should get used to.